I am upset with You.
even in my darkest hours I have never renounced my faith and love of You. nor denied that I believe You are real and that I believe in your promises.
sometimes it’s not fair that many who dont deserve good favor and grace continue on, yet devoted lovers get tormented and rejected help in times of emergency.
all i can do is sit here and cry and be baffled at all the betrayal. i am in shock. i am speechless. i dont understand Your ways, but i guess i really dont know how to give up.
even if i have to be a martyr.
