it started off so clear cut. what was happening, what would happen. the sparks were flying so much i thought we’d set the town on fire. i was reluctant to openly give a few pieces of my heart i had left. i was secure in my decision. well as secure as the situation would allow.
however, something changed in the chemistry of “us.” i dont know where. i dont understand how. i’ve mantained a calm demeanor. i’m never looking for perfection. somehow i find the men that are. i dont know how i attract the eyes of the most critical. i understand i expect a lot out of someone but honestly i am so very forgiving and i forget easily.
i am pulling out all the stops. not in hopes of winning the title of the relationship but to truly win your heart. to show you that even when you find the flaws it’s ok to acknowledge them and move on. it’s an akward situation to be out at a bar and have a random girl you dated walk up to me like she knew me then tell me you and her were supposed to hang out that night but SHE stood you up. when i feel we could have been hanging out.
the single life is fun. i like being single. but the shades of gray that are appearing are starting to cloud and cover what is really here and really at stake. the connection we have made. whether either of us wants to recognize it, is there. i have fallen for you, but the gray is helping me catch myself everytime.
