December 2009
8 posts
Christmas
when i was little Christmas used to be about a huge man with a white beard intruding my home to leave awesome gifts under a huge decorated tree.
now since i dont believe in the huge bearded man i dont get many if any gifts. it gets worse every year.
i wish i never stopped believing in you huge white bearded man. i might have the pea coat, boots, and CDs i wanted.
hahaha
on a serious...
the wait is over.
i’m here in the now, ready to fuck up everyone and anything that gets in my way to self discovery or musical inspiration.
welcome to my world. welcome to the new era. you can buckle up or get the fuck off. either way the train is leaving the station.
wishful thinking
i guess the pessimist in me is really evident in love. i know you are something i could really like. i dont think i’ll ever get you the way i want. but a girl can dream and be swept up by her dreams.
dreams of laughing with you and holding your hand. seeing the world. i long for your kiss and touch. i feel that if i ever receive them i’ll burst into flames. just the thought is...
“Exert your talents, and distinguish yourself, and don’t think of retiring...”
“Energy and persistence conquer all things.-
Benjamin Franklin”
“What is defeat? Nothing but education; nothing but the first steps to something...”
depression is such an uphill battle. for me i can come so far past the negativity for so long until it swallows me up again. i’m awesome, i’m down, i’m awesome, i’m down…
this cycle has repeated numerous times in the last 3 years. i cannot let it keep going this time.
i am fighting so hard for my sanity right now it’s not even funny. i crave stability and yet...
one day i’m gonna make you know i was the best thing that never should have happened to you.
the things i did for you can not be measured in numbers or graphs. the things i gave to you can’t even be inventoried really. i cant exactly figure out what you took that was different from what the ones before you. i was so much more upset over the others. you were just like…there. i...